:(

wanting it real bad. real bad that it hurts.

tapi kita ga selalu bisa dapetin apa yang kita mau.

and after the search, the praying, hoping and aching, i just stop.

i am still believing though. but not getting what we want when we wished so hard is just painful. so, i stop wanting (too much). ada pepatah bilang gantungkan cita cita setinggi langit. ada juga yang bilang, kalo terbang jangan tinggi tinggi, nanti jatohnya sakit.

to tell you the truth, i am not really sure what to do now. semoga Tuhan memberi kuasa dan jalan bagi kita semua. amin.