i'm (still) such a baby

in the middle of writing (or to be exact: procrastinating) on my thesis ,
i had a sudden urge to read sis' blog
i always do that everytime i feel home sick
and this is what i saw












he may never knows
how i bawled my eyes out when i read it

my greatest fear
is us not being in each other's life
not being there when we come home to each other every day,
missing the simplicity of eating together and chat about how everyone's days was

his birthday's next week
oh how i wish i will be there
and as i am nearing yet another turning point in life,
i can't help to wonder
am i strong enough to spend the rest of my life being away from where my heart belongs