my family has been in my mind a lot lately
what will the future be i wonder, how will everything fall into place
friends who i've spoken to have all said the same
that i shouldn't worry and that all i have to think of is myself. there's nothing wrong in that
part of me want to believe, but how can i do that?
i am mostly overwhelmed with guilt
for being so far, for doing what i do, for being happy

i called my dad this morning, and listening to his voice felt so good
we chatted about my siblings, how they are still going out late at night a lot
i asked him, is that ok? he said calmly, yeah sure. if they're away, i will look for them.
my heart melted right there and then
not knowing what will happen, i wish my dad will always be there
healthy and happy,
looking for me when i wander away from home